
For me, and for him.
It's one of those weeks for me, and having being through the past 2 weeks of almost the same, I'm starting to think that it's going to be like that for the next weeks to come too, and asking when will it all go back to original point.
My weeks has been ever since my mom had that minor op been seems to throw everything out of balance and what's new is that she'll be having a 3 times a week chiropratic theraphy for her back in the morning, and it's not going to be a short term type of arrangement. So each day now, i get that additional time to spent with Kay, watching him eat breakfast, make bath for him, and i can even throw in some playtime when my mom's out getting her treatment, but once i have to leave for work, Kay's lots more harder to soothe his emotions cause he gets all teary, and this morning was the worst so far. He was literally crying his eyes out, trying to tear himself away from my mom's cluthes, just to hold on to my hand, and saying "mommy don't go". Gosh my heart just broke to pieces, and as much as i wished wished that i could be with him for the entire day. it's just not possible. He's never been like this before when i have to leave for work every morning, and we figured out that because the past weeks has so much happening with him being sick, my mom having to take her rest, and now her treatment for her back, we're going to be seeing more of this. I've tried explaining to him each day where i'll be, and what i'm doing, it's just not possible for a 3 year old to take all these into understanding, and when i call home to just talk to him yesterday, Kay actually told me "Kay sad sad, can't find mummy" before starting to hear him tear.....arrrrhggggg!!!
I'm just going to try, talk to him about this everyday, and that wishing that tomorrow would get better for both me & him, and for him to know that i'm just going to be away in the day, and be back in the evening. This for now till I have to leave for a business trip to Italy in late September. It's going to be tougher now since he's 3, he knows that mommy will be home every night, and surely he's not going to be happy. The last time i had to travel, he was only 14 months, and at that point he doesn't really care if mommy is here with him or not, so I will handle this when the time comes.
Not feeling very scrappy these few days, it's that type of feeling of wanting to scrap, got a photo in mind, but i'm missing the right paper for it....can you imagine i just can't find the right paper despite having a whole box filled with patterened paper...gosh. What am i to do with all my old supplies? And the new ranges from CHA which is about to happen soon....yikes!!! I'm already planning so far to get my hands on Sassfrass's Indie Girl series, American Craft Dear Lizzy Enchanted series when they come here, and the list gets longer I'm sure.
Have a good evening ahead....i love the cooler weather these days....