
It's not going to be easy, or never have been for me to travel for work ever since Kay came into my life, and even though i don't travel as much to be away from him, i know when the time comes for me to leave, it's me with a heavy heart. It's always the hardest for me when i have to travel, and for him, he's not going to like it either cause it's no mommy for bedtime, no mommy for company & no mommy for 1 week. I'm counting down to the time i have to travel which is the end of Sept, and going to places as beautiful as Italy & the tons of shopping(oh yes Gucci here i come) i will get done, and tons of ME time, i'm still going to miss him terribly, and i remembered when i left for 2 weeks 2 years ago to Italy & Portugal, i came home to a 14 month old lil one who started walking. Missed out on his very 1st walk on his own( i had to view it through a video Jayce had recorded for me to just see him take his 1st big step when i came back), and i still remembered clearly that even at that age, he doesn't know where on earth i disappeared too, but when he saw my face again, that lil smile & excitement of seeing me once again was the best ever as he walked towards me. I remembered being on the verge of tearing cause it's 2 whole weeks away from my baby & my handphone bill went up as high as close to 1K (yikes!!) just so that he knows mommy is still around somewhere.
We've decided that when i leave for Italy, he's not going to send me off at the airport cause we know for sure he's not going to like seeing me go in without him, and to see him cry is not going to do both of us any good.
I'm surely missing all his mood swings, his voice, his smell, his everything and telling myself that it's going to be a quick 1 week since i'm going to be at the fair for 3 whole days, the travel time in between & that i'm going to be able to shop at H&M for Kaylen and the company of my dear brother, yes time will just fly by and he is in good hands, so it's just me coping with missing my heart out for him.
See the grumpy face above, i'm already missing him already!!!